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Lie to me
I'm tired
and hungry
 my head hurts
why is my life so dull
          I hate being bored
fuck
 my stomach hurts again
 but I don't want to think about that
 I'm scared
 and alone
 in a room full of people
 ignored by my own boyfriend
 ass-hole
who the hell does he think I am
  he talks me into going to some "party"
with his "friends"
 who just happen to hate me
 and then he leaves me alone with them
 while he goes outside to have smoke
then he comes in
and wont even come near me
 ass-hole!
 I hate men
I swear I'm going to end up a lesbian
 if every guy I ever get involved with treats me like this
fuckers!
 I hate being alone
 so then he comes over to me
 and acts all concerned and says
"what's wrong?"
 fuck you!
 all I want to do is go home
just take me home
  but he doesn't want to leave his "friends"
 his "friends" who make fun of him behind his back
 his "friends" who pretend to like me
his "friends" who he cares for more than me
 maybe I'm just a greedy bitch
 who wants everything
 and maybe I think
 I deserve everything
 I think I do
 I put up with his shit daily
 why?
I don't know
  that's not true
 I know
it's because I love him
 and because he is who he is
 some times I just want to kill him
 strangle him
until he dies
 because he hurts me so bad
just like every guy on earth
 everyone hurts me
I just care to damn much
  and I feel to much
 every one lies to me
 and I'm stupid to believe them
 I want to cry
 just break down
       and scream
 and yell
 and cry
 and I do
 right there in his car
 I break down
I've never cried like that
     at least
 not in front of anyone
but I did
and then he held me
 as if it makes everything better
        and for some reason
 it does
 he sits there
holding me
     while I sob on his shoulder
 and he tells me
how sorry he is
and how much he loves me
and how he didn't mean to hurt me
and how he'll never do it again
and I know it's a lie
but for some reason
I believe you
   and it makes me feel better
so lie to me
and make me smile
   hold me
don't ever let me go
  and just keep me
forever
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