Kelly
How is it possible?
Is it really true?
I’ve fallen again.
And oh how it hurts.
Why do I  love you?
When you’ve got no love for me.
It’s just not right that way.
Why?
Why did you hurt me?
Why did you care?
Why did you do it?
Why did I?
I’ve always liked you.
Even from the start.
You told people you liked me too.
So what was it?
My one sweet night.
The night that you cared.
Why then and not now?
Has it gone away.
You hugged me.
You held me.
You kissed me so sweet.
We laughed.
And I  was happy.
For that one sweet night.
Can you believe it?
Happy?
It’s so hard to believe.
I held your hand.
You kissed my forehead.
I watched you sleep.
You know.
I was the only one awake.
Tammy, Staci, David, Josh, and you.
All asleep.
I sat at the top of my stairs.
While you laid there on the ground.
In such a deep sleep.
You looked so peaceful.
You looked like an angel.
Sent just for me.
When you woke up.
We said our good-bye.
And kissed a good-bye kiss.
Then my sweet night,
Ended with that kiss.
The next day you remembered.
I’m only 14.
14.
Your 20.
That’s 6 years.
God, not again!
Please not again!
Why does this always happen to me.
Your not the first 20 year old I’ve loved.
You know that.
He had the same damn problem.
Damn you both.
So now you avoid me.
Do you know how bad that hurts.
Not only that.
But her?
Now your dating her?
How could you?
But when I see you.
I see that look in your eyes.
You know you hurt me.
You hurt too.
Don’t you?
You still care.
Don’t you?
At least I think you do?
It could just be my hopeful dream.
Do you?
Then drop your fears.
The fear of my age.
Then come to me.
But.
No.
That is just a sob-story fairy-tail.
With a happy ending.
Just a dream.
A dream.
I love you.
I don’t even know what love is.
But I know.
That I do love you.
I know.
I know.
Now all I have are memories to make me smile.
But I always end up in tears.
Remembering.
That one sweet night.
More Pain?