Existence
by Angela Marie
I am no one
             can you see me?
     do I exist to you?
do you even notice me?
  I've fallen down
  like an angel from the sky
my whole body aches
I'm lying here dying
cant you see me?
I'm crying
screaming
and you all just walk by me
   I call for help
but you look right through me
and step on my fingers as you walk by
        Why cant you see me?
Why cant you hear me?
 my heart is bleeding
 stabbed by you existence
       where as I
      I am an illusion
    Why does this hurt so bad?
  my heart beets slower now
 I look to you one more time
and call my final call
 but you don't hear me
I knew you wouldn't
 I try to cry… but I cant
the tears wont come to me
they've dried up
so I make the sounds of crying
and somehow they soothe me
why
 I don't know
    I know it's coming
 my end
the death of this non-existing life
I look to you again
I reach out to touch you
but my hand passes through your body
like you where the ghost
 and I was real
but I know
   I am nothing
         I lay my head on the ground
       I can here my blood drip to the pavement
the sound curses me
It's completely silent now
 I know my mind has gone deaf
the only thing i can hear is my own breath
 not you, not them
  not even my own cries of pain.
I lay there for what seems like an eternity
everything has a red tint to it now
so I shut my eyes
and listen to my breathing slow
 and sleep
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